I hate myself

For letting you go

This was the most unrivalled

And the hardest thing

I ever did.

I knew you were afraid of the dark

And I was becoming one

I live in a narrow dark world,

In the dress woven by lucifer

How could I drag you into it?

How could I drag you into hell?

That part of me

Which is dying,

That part of me

Which doesn’t even remember how

Days are like.

I know I can’t repair myself

But it’s good to see you fixed

And for the record

I wasn’t giving up on us

I became best friend with Hades

And this dark thing inside my

Body started growing

And now it’s eating me slowly

But you’re untainted by dark

You deserve colour

You deserve love

I hate myself

For letting you go

But that was imperative

I know you hate me

And I want you to know it’s ok.

It’s ok because of the things I’ve done.

But I wanna let you know

That in this dark emptiness

I only remember your dulcet voice,

I only remember your sparkly eyes

I wanna let you know that

I miss you and

I miss us the most.

The End

I see the sunrise

And wonder, will you ever come back?

To fill my dark murk heart.

Every moment away from you is like

A curse

I am the convict here

Please forgive me.

You loved with every last drop

Of your soul

But I am an imbecile, you know,

Without you days are just fine

But night is too shoddy

I chopped your heart

With a verbal knife,

When sun is down

And lights are out

Alone with my thoughts

I am left with my agony

There used to be days

that I thought I was okay

or at least that

I was going to be

But I am not okay

Everyday is a struggle

Everyday is arduous

They say in the end everything

Will be alright

But I guess this is the end.

The end with no light

The end where I lay on colourless bed.

Shooting star

Like a shooting star in the deep black horizon

It was you who made me wish for more of you

Knowing truly well of the burning streak and smoke

That it left in the sky up above

But all I could care for was this moment

Where I’ll close my eyes and wish for you

Again and again and again and again

Until I turn to dust along with you my star dust.


You to me is like a moon but

You are my shooting star as well

Because I wish on you always

You are far away from me and

Moving even more farther

I want you to know that you

Can count on me always,

Until I’m stardust and you my infinity.

This is in collabration with Adithya 😊

She did all the hard work, motivated me to write, one of the best blogger I’ve seen.

Thank you Adithya ❤

A man

This is for 

Every brother 

Every father 

Every son 

I have been bought up in the society where men are not allowed to express themselves, they told me man don’t feel , man don’t cry. Man up they told me man up young boy.

It’s not their fault you see this is what they have been taught for centuries. 

But is this right ? No, I dont think so

To all the people out there go to your brother, father or son and-

Tell them crying in public won’t mean he is weak.

Tell them it’s ok to feel low sometimes.

Tell them it’s ok to share what you have been through.

Tell them you can get tired too.

Tell them they can be emotional.

Tell them you are there when they need you.

Tell them actually wait tell yourself first look into the mirror, smile and say it’s ok.;)

Sorry women’s out there I’m not talking about feminism. But don’t you all think this should be up there with feminism? 

What should we call it man______?


My door is always open, anyone of you who needs to chat are always welcome. It’s not good to suffer in silence. You can share anything with me and trust me I am a good listner. Give me a call, leave a text, come to my house, talk to me. I’ve tea, I’ve coffee but most importantly I’ve time and I’ll always land an ear. You are never not welcome.

We can’t rescue you if we don’t know you need it. 

I’m no therapist but I promise you this I will listen. I will care.

No you aren’t alone. There is help and most important THERE IS HOPE.



You can contact me here-

Instagram – parag

My number – 8387818886

Sunshine Blogger Award #1 and #2

Hello everyone ! I was nominated for this award by two wonderful people Sushma and Adithya Thank you so much for this. Please do check out their amazing posts. 

The Rules

Thank to the person that nominated you.

Link the post back to them.Display the picture on your post.

Answer their questions.Nominate 10 bloggers.Provide 11 questions for your nominees.

I’ll answer all 20 questions.:D

So here are questions from Adithya

1. Have you ever tried to impress someone and failed miserably?

Miserable is quite good word for how i failed, so the answer is yes.

2. One thing that you never ever wanna do?


3. How much do you enjoy blogging?

I love to blogging but I’m bad in it.

. What’s the best ever blog post that you’ve ever read?

I am free by 

5 If you could’ve been a superhero who would you be ?

I’ll go with capi.
6 Are you an obsessive thinker? If yes why do you think so?

Yup I am , I think too much about everything.
7) Which is the one animal which you are most afraid of?

I’m animal lover in fact I’m a canophilist.

8. If you were given a chance to meet any three of your fellow blogging friends who would that be and why?

just_me 🙂



You all are awesome bloggers and i can learn a lot from you

9. What is your craziest dream/ wish?

Watch elclasico at camp nou 😍

10. What’s your favorite food?

Dal bati (Rajasthani food)

11) What is your favorite word?


Now, questions ansked by Sushma

1)What is your favorite creation about writing?

Uhmmm i really dont know.

2) Who is your favourite blogger?

Uhm that’s difficult one but I’ll go with 

3)Why you write?(my most favorite and unsolved question till now)

I write to take feelings out of me.                                                                                                                                

4)What is your most adventurous thing you have ever done?

Getting lost in unknown city with besties.

5)What makes you different from any other blogger?

All of them are awesome except me.

6)What is your book?

There are so many 😀

7)What is the funniest thing you have ever done till now?

I drew funny painting on my friends face with permanent marker while he was sleeping.

8)Share one confession about your relationship?

I did break up after reading a book 😝

9)Which one dream you can never forget?(I m asking about closed eyes dream..😂)

Me playing with messi in FC Barcelona.
You can choose any 10 of 20 questions I asked:D

    Thank you everyone ❤

    Liebster award 

    Hello everyone! I was nominated for Liebster award by Just_me 🙂 for two times, months ago but due to some reason I uninstalled WordPress for some time. I am really sorry for that but now I want to thank you for this! Do check out his blog if you haven’t yet! Lots of nice stuff to read there!

    The Rules:

    Create a new post thanking the person who nominated you, links to their blog. Include award graphic.

    Answer the questions provided.

    Make a new set of 11 questions for your nominees to answer.Nominate 11 others and share your post with them so they see it.
    The Questions from him and My Answers:

     1) What’s one thing about you that surprises people ?

     Hmm, I don’t think I’ve something in me which surprises people but I consider myself to be people’s person. 

    2) Where is your happy place?

    Wherever my best friends are:)

    3)  What’s your dream job?

    Get paid for travelling. 

    4) What are you most afraid of?

    Loneliness, darkness 

     5)The best way for you to relax?

    My best way to relax is watching football. I am big fan of Lionel Messi, while watching him play I forget everything .

    6) Your favorite movie?

    Zindagi na milegi dobara 

    7) What are you most proud of?

    I am proud of my country, parents, Indian army, my willingness to try

    8) Has a book ever changed your life?

    Yes, it was paper towns by John Green 

    9) What sports do you play?

    I love football 

    10) Where is the most interesting place you’ve been?

    Goa, with its incandescent beauty of beaches, late night parties it’s the most interesting place I’ve been.

    11) What does you hope never changes? 

    Her feeling towards me .. oh but it changed 😅

    I know I should nominate 11 bloggers but I don’t know these much people on WordPress so I nominate everyone who is reading this post. 

    Thank you for reading 

    And I would really like to connect with you outside WordPress so here is my instagram id see you there 


    Do I still love her ? 

    Do I still love her ?

    No I don’t  .. BUT 

    I still remember when I first started talking to her.

    I still remember every word she said.

    I still remember when I heard her voice for first time.

    I still remember the way she used to smile.

    I still remember the way she used to care about me.

    I still remember when we used to share everything.

    I still remember your face when you used to smile or when you used to cry.

    I still remember the day she left me.

    I still remember those days when you were with me.

    I still remember actually everything.

    Do i still love her ? 

    No I don’t .. BUT 


    In the generation of people who want to be heartless, apatheist and empty of feeling it’ll hard to find someone who is what you need, but do not become like the world.

    Be loyal, be in love ,be emotional and full of feelings, be hungry to help, be thristy for affection and anything else human being ought to desire.

    Having a soft heart in a cruel world is courage, not weakness.

    Stop slut shaming 

    Today I saw a boy calling slut to someone I care about, whole day I was thinking what slut actually is ?

    SLUT – A word used by some boys to describe girls character these days.

    She wears short cloths. She is slut

    She is going for the late night party. She is slut.

    She is having more male friends. She is slut.

    She is not a virgin. She is slut.

    She is not interested in you. She is slut.

    She drinks alcohol. She is slut.

    I heard she was born naked. That slut. 🙄

    Is she really a slut ???


    Rather I should say you have a dirty mind 

    I don’t know what’s wrong with people I see the world slowly transformed into a wilderness, I hear approaching thunder which will destroy us too. I hope this cruelty ends and humanity and tranquillity will return once more..!!